February 27, 2008

I don't know where to start. I have been working on my blog Used Car Buying Guide.
I have changed it so many times, my head is pounding.

I have been trying to add "show/hide post summaries" to my template, but I just can't seem to get it right. I am feeling very discouraged. I try so hard, and spend so much time, and feel like I'm not getting anywhere. I am very close, yet again to giving up.

Half of my problem is that I am trying to do too many things at once. It's impossible. One person can only be in one place at a time.

I know that people who suffer from depression don't have the same thought patterns as people who don't have depression. We spend so much of our time fighting ourselves, and going around in circles. It is truly exhausting. Take these blogs I have started. 4 blogs. I can't keep up with one let alone 4! And you should see my house! I planned on going out first thing this morning to get cat food, but once I get on this computer, I can't seem to pull myself away from it. Needless to say, I haven't gotten car food yet. I figure I can always give them a can of tuna. One time I actually gave them split pea and ham soup. And yes, their poop came out green! It was kindof gross actually.

So the whole reason I started 4 different blogs was because I wanted to talk about different things, and I still don't really know how to roll them all into one. I have been working on it, but when I can't concentrate it is difficult.

Anyway. I am always trying to learn things like limiting my time on the computer so I can get some laundry done. Things like that. It's hard. My days go by, and not much gets done. My good friend disagrees with me. She thinks that I accomplish lots of things each day, or week. I know I don't give myself credit for the things I do, especially when I look around and there is always more to be done. And then my boyfriend comes home from rehab for a day and then I have to recover from him being here. Don't get me wrong, I love him, but I do have somewhat of a routine, and on the days he comes home, my routine gets completely destroyed. That really throws me off.

I'm also still having a hard time thinking anyone is going to give a s--t about me and my life. I try to remember what John Chow says on his blog. That blogs are personal, and that the reader is supposed to feel like they are having a one on one conversation with you. That's what keeps me posting.

I have some ideas of some TV shows that I like that I want to share, and my mini-dachshund had puppies on Feb 23rd, so I want to post pictures of them. Hopefully I will be able to do those things without having to spend the next 4 hours on the computer.

Well, thanks for listening, and I hope to see you again soon!